“You should start eating less!”
“Must be nice to be so over weight!”
I am 5′ 6″ and last time I weighed myself I weighed 112 pounds. Since my freshman year in high school I have always weighed between 112-116 pounds. Do I starve myself? No, I actually eat a lot. Do I have an eating disorder? Nope. Am I trying to lose weight? No, I eat just the same as everyone else. Am I insecure about my weight? Yes.
I have never once calculated my BMI and had it not tell me I am under weight. I have been told on multiple accounts, by multiple different people, that I have “chicken” or “toothpick” legs. When sitting down to eat I have been told multiple times that “you could afford to eat about 10 of those!”, or “She can eat as much as she wants, it won’t hurt her.”, or “It wouldn’t kill ya to gain a few pounds!”. And of course I get the inevitable “Must be nice to be so skinny.”
Body image is something a lot of people are dealing with these days. People tend to think that only people with plus size body types are the ones who are uncomfortable in their own bodies. Speaking from experience I can tell you its not true.
The ideal body type that many girls are aiming to achieve these days is what is now being referred to as “thicc”. According to an urban dictionary definition thicc is: “A descriptor meant to designate a woman with a shapely figure and is typically somewhat chubby.
They often will have an hourglass or pear shaped body with emphasis on the shape and size of their buttocks and thighs.”
I don’t fit this image at all. I am not curvy. I do not have big thighs, in fact my thighs are about the size of my calves. My butt is not big by any means, and my breasts are much smaller than needed to fit the term “thicc”.
I have tried to gain weight, I have told myself that I was going to work out and start doing squats. I have cried over my body type several times while looking for new clothes to add to my wardrobe. People make comments to me all the time about how skinny I am, and I know that they don’t mean it to be rude. I just wonder if they realize that many people my size are just as insecure about being underweight, as people are about being overweight.
So many times I catch myself comparing my body to other peoples. I do it so often that it has become such a subconscious act. I think “if only I could have my ______ look like that, then I would love my body”. But the harsh reality is, everyone has something they don’t like about themselves. Even the people that we see as being flawless have things they wish they could change. I have realized that my body is the way it is, and I can either mourn over what I wish it could be, or learn to love what is (or isn’t) there. 😉
It is hard to practice what you preach all the time, and I know I still will complain about my body here and there, but love your body for what it is.
“Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are.”- Marilyn Monroe
Photo Taken By: Arlene Alto